Ramblings

'Tis the season to be hiring - for my boss anyway. Which means it's the season for me to be training. I don't mind it too much so long as the people are nice and interested in doing a good job, which they always are on the whole. With one rather notable exception who still makes my vision skew towards red. Yes, he is still working with us. Why? Not an earthly clue, but clearly he has some pull with divine intervention because I was ready to chuck him out after the first day. Cretin.

Ahem. But let us not dwell. It generally leads to incohate muttering of also-red-tinged words.

I find it amazing every time I train how much of what I do I never actually think about. It's like I walk around working with my head somewhere off in the distance, because whenever I'm trying to tell someone what to do in a shift I find myself having to actually walk through it and thinking things like, "Do I do this? Really?" or "Wow, I can't remember walking over here every day. Have I seen that picture before?"

So I was remembering, as I set up training times, of somewhere off in the fuzzy past when I was learning under the previous library assistant. It was winter, of course, because things are always fuzzy when they happen in winter. I think it's all the steam of winter - defrosting over a heater, the fog on glasses as you walk through doors, breaths in the cold air. My point was, however, that there was a time when I seriously thought about everything that I don't think about now, which is just strange when you consider it. When did I move from thinking, "Okay, first sort the book tags, then run these to the Dean's office. Next, shelf read this section. Alright, then go the the Reserves..." to "Hm, I wonder if these shoes were the best idea, maybe I should stick to normal flats. But the boots are so cute! Still, too many stairs. I need to run by the bookstore after my shift..." The mind is a funny thing.

Mainly I wonder if I was better at this before I got good at it. Which probably doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but I still wonder.